POETRY: 'S (Xcuse Me, 1st Luv)' by Trinity

Ill try my hrdst 2 say

ths w/o 2 much scruple

bt I cnt hlp bt c da wy uve neglectd us dese past six

yrs. Ive bn starving

frm ur lack of affection or any knd of sentiment

tht wud giv me any incentiv 2 wnt 2 luv u. u dnt knw hw mny times I seriously

thot bout leavn u. I wsnt sure

whn I’d do it or whthr or nt I’d tell u face 2 face or jus simply

leave a dear jon lettr on da fire place. Bt nsted I stayed

bc it sounded

so

hrd 2 scheme

my wy thru ths life w/o u. Az I said

it ovr & ovr n my hed I fnd myslf  st-st-stuttering

lik a cam’s shutter…

Mor lik a shiver

bt it wsnt freezn. It flickrd & flutrd az I tried to fnd evry reason 2 4gt it. Bt its steadily

on my mind. I thnk bout u lik 1 thnks bout 2, lik 2 thnks bout turtle duvs, lik duvs thnk bout cryn… ive shed

enuff tears 2 flood ths earth ovr again & u hv yt 2 feel my pain. It’s a steady

cycle: I start

2 leav bt something

alwys stops

me & makes me hope ull do bettr bt thn I fnd myslf stuck

n da same

spot.

& im sorry

if it seems

az if im puttn evrythng on u; its sum

of my negligence 2 bt eithr wy we hv 2 face da fact tht we cnt sustain

a healthy rltnshp. I didnt wnt it 2 cum 2 ths bc I knw it wud hrt. Ive thot lng & hrd bout it…bout me… bout u lik r thnks bout s,

lik s

thnks bout shoes,

lik shoes

thnk bout wlkn, lik wlkn thnks bout out… im wlkn out on u bc its hrd nt knwn wher u nd 2 b bt known tht its nt wher ur @. Jus take a wlk n my shoes

4 a moment. I say

all of tht 2 say

tht our current situation

is pass da possibility of restoration. We no lngr hv jus patchs 2 sew

up bc weve out grown ea othr n certain aspects. Do u smell

wht im stepping

n? & n sum

cases im bored 2 say

the least. I nd 2 taste da kiss of someone

new. & az I sit

here & thnk of hw 2 summarize

da end of wht seems 

to b nvr endn I beg tht u nt bribe me 2 stay

bc by da time u respond 2 ths txt ill b gon. I knw ths is totally random & I hope tht im nt interruptn a gud day or addn 2 a bad 1. So

xcuse me, 1^st luv, bt we r thru. Sorry.

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