POETRY: "Trippin’ Over a Major Revision" By Cheryl A. Baldwin

Family problems
         Pain and fear
Anger in my heart
Rage screaming in my ear.
I wanna get away from here,

So I'm trippin' out of my comfort zone
I'm on a quest to find my piece.
There's no lookin' back
It's time to release.

Time to be more honest
No breaking this promise
In search for solace
No more censoring this goddess
Because it is my soul that needs to be the strongest
Not my relationship with you, you in or my significant other

I had to be tougher

I had to let them suffer

I was being their buffer for way to long!

I tried to be a cushion for everyone else’s pain

But after I changed I began to have shame

For when I wasn’t there

They had no one to blame.

Inadequate is what I felt

Left my family and friends all by themselves

But I had to be stronger for them.

No leader is a leader when they are leading their followers to water, only to drown.

Onward I race

Impatience is what I face

Trembles when I realized that the memories I can’t erase

A recollection of those around me

Those moments I had people surrounding

But now it’s just me.

All alone in this peace of mind. 

Absent from the mind and pace, I look to my grace

I ground my knees to the floor and I start to embrace

Myself in all his Glory.

hooooohaaaaaaah! I feel better.

I’m trippin’ over a major revision

I’ve had to make some major decisions

My former self and I just had a major division,

But it’s ok

Because I envision greatness.

A better self

A better sister

A better daughter

A better friend

A better Spirit

A better Lover

A better Leader.