Friday, December 28, 2012

POETRY: "Marie Antoinette" By Cheryl A. Baldwin

We were separated
like a banana and its peel
I felt tossed out
... yet I was free of all the bitter implications of life.
Oh i may not understand now, but i will!
...Someday
    
Mama say he was no good for me
...but oh how i adored him dearly.
See I was in love.
Astonished by his style 
and captivated by his voice
               But still he was no good.
Creepin' through the nights at all hours and...
And I loved him.
Didn't seem to mind his wicked ways, cuz at the end of the day 
He was still mine 
and I was still his
He was my Mozart 
And i was his Antonia,
Lost in the music of love together.

     And there was always that voice in the back of my head telling me that this was wrong.
But i couldn't...
I just couldn't let go of...
 ...my love.

     ...Yes, those days have come to pass,
and even though i don't get that feeling anymore
and even though those melodic memories still parade my dreams...
I must find peace with it...!

  ...Cuz mama knows best
And she say that the rhythm in my heart will, one day, live again.

"Hi" by Ana Hagins


My mind starts to race

at increasing increments,

a pace so unrealistic my thoughts can’t keep up.

 

Arrange, rearrange.

Arrange, rearrange.

Constantly changing,

but not in cycles.

 

One step closer and

my nerves go haywire.

Hostility.

A total mental chaos.

 

Anxiety hits…

 

PANIC!

 

PANIC!

 

PANIC!

 

Arrange, rearrange.

Arrange, rearrange.

Constantly changing,

but it’s not a pattern.

 

Viciously banging against my head,

my thoughts can’t get a grip on

what needs to be done.

Ever so aggressively scourging my tongue

that my teeth began to chatter.

Brain freeze.

 

WAKE UP!

I’m awake,

in a zone but not focused

…gotta get focused.

 

KNOCK! KNOCK!

It exasperates intensely on my throat like

I’m chokin’,

and then it gets me nauseous.

 

SPIT IT OUT!

Now I gotta puke

like a punk overdosin’.

 

Arrange, rearrange.

Arrange, rearrange.

Constantly changing.

 

I’m flipped like opposites.

Gemini.

Now yin and yang.

 
STOP!

Now im feeling woosey.

 
 
One step closer…

 
 
WARNING!

YOU ARE NOW OVERDOSIN’

OFF A DRUG THAT GETS YOU OPEN!

 

One step closer and it all replays…

 
 
PANIC: arrange, rearrange.

 
 
WAKE UP: I’m woke. I’m in a zone but not focused. Gotta stay focused.

 
 
KNOCK KNOCK: it hits so hard off my throat like im chokin’. 

 
 
Arrange, rearrange.

Arrange, rearrange.

 
 
One step closer…

 
 
SPIT IT OUT!

 

I take one final step

and say…

“Hi”.

POETRY: 'S (Xcuse Me, 1st Luv)' by Trinity


Ill try my hrdst 2 say

ths w/o 2 much scruple

bt I cnt hlp bt c da wy uve neglectd us dese past six

yrs. Ive bn starving

frm ur lack of affection or any knd of sentiment

tht wud giv me any incentiv 2 wnt 2 luv u. u dnt knw hw mny times I seriously

thot bout leavn u. I wsnt sure

whn I’d do it or whthr or nt I’d tell u face 2 face or jus simply

leave a dear jon lettr on da fire place. Bt nsted I stayed

bc it sounded

so

hrd 2 scheme

my wy thru ths life w/o u. Az I said

it ovr & ovr n my hed I fnd myslf  st-st-stuttering

lik a cam’s shutter…

Mor lik a shiver

bt it wsnt freezn. It flickrd & flutrd az I tried to fnd evry reason 2 4gt it. Bt its steadily

on my mind. I thnk bout u lik 1 thnks bout 2, lik 2 thnks bout turtle duvs, lik duvs thnk bout cryn… ive shed

enuff tears 2 flood ths earth ovr again & u hv yt 2 feel my pain. It’s a steady

cycle: I start

2 leav bt something

alwys stops

me & makes me hope ull do bettr bt thn I fnd myslf stuck

n da same

spot.

& im sorry

if it seems

az if im puttn evrythng on u; its sum

of my negligence 2 bt eithr wy we hv 2 face da fact tht we cnt sustain

a healthy rltnshp. I didnt wnt it 2 cum 2 ths bc I knw it wud hrt. Ive thot lng & hrd bout it…bout me… bout u lik r thnks bout s,

lik s

thnks bout shoes,

lik shoes

thnk bout wlkn, lik wlkn thnks bout out… im wlkn out on u bc its hrd nt knwn wher u nd 2 b bt known tht its nt wher ur @. Jus take a wlk n my shoes

4 a moment. I say

all of tht 2 say

tht our current situation

is pass da possibility of restoration. We no lngr hv jus patchs 2 sew

up bc weve out grown ea othr n certain aspects. Do u smell

wht im stepping

n? & n sum

cases im bored 2 say

the least. I nd 2 taste da kiss of someone

new. & az I sit

here & thnk of hw 2 summarize

da end of wht seems 

to b nvr endn I beg tht u nt bribe me 2 stay

bc by da time u respond 2 ths txt ill b gon. I knw ths is totally random & I hope tht im nt interruptn a gud day or addn 2 a bad 1. So

xcuse me, 1st luv, bt we r thru. Sorry.

</3   =’(

*Send*

Monday, November 19, 2012

POETRY: 'Homecoming' by Kabriel Moorehead

Homecoming
By Kabriel Moorehead


Things will never be the same
Words of wise men that are imparted upon the youth as they leave home
You never quite know what you’re getting yourself into
Leaving southern comfort in search of an ideal
Because home is where the heart is
Until you grow weary,
Of the constant aches and pains of a sheltered existence
The monotony is like a slowly dragging dagger across your veins
Eeking out drops of life until one day you hit empty,
Becoming soulless and drone like,
Trudging through your days in a death march,
A fluid less trail of tears left in your wake
This is why children leave home
Unafraid of the unknown
Because the threat of becoming pigeonholed is daunting
Things are never the same once they return
With the anxiety of invariability removed
We become slaves to the system unchained
Purposeful in our slow, staggering steps towards individuality
Things are never quite the same once we return home
Because we don’t want them to be

Copyright 2012| Kabriel Moorehead

Friday, November 16, 2012

PHOTOGRAPHY: 'Moon Shadows Hold Secrets' by Jazelle Handoush

Moon Shadows Hold Secrets [Poetic Pieces]
By Jazelle Handoush


She's the dark side of the moon;
She's a mystery & a muse.

Copyright 2012 | Jazelle Handoush

PHOTOGRAPHY: 'The Inevitable Toothache' by Jazelle Handoush

The Inevitable Toothache
By Jazelle Handoush
She's all candy hearts
& icing on the outside
but she's just a temporary sweet nothing
to get you by.

Copyright 2012 | Jazelle Handoush

Thursday, October 4, 2012

POETRY: 'Beneath The Rubble Of The Realist' by Jazelle Handoush

Beneath The Rubble Of The Realist
By Jazelle Handoush

I see you destroy all these beautiful things, take a
Sledgehammer to hearts and heros. You say
You're not destroying, you're showing
Real world, true face
What it looks like through the inside, now
Out.
You said you'd take a
Needle through the Milky Way
Thread between teeth, sharper than it seems
Pull it through, take a string, in,
Out,
In...
Tie a knot, loose or not
Stars shooting, bullet to the brain
POP!
You say you're not the one to destroy, when the
Big, red, bright self-destruct button
Is anyone's to deploy, but I
Think you're setting them up on an instant install, placing
Them way within reach for the any mind or kind, until
Click!
A basic boom.
You say, you say, with words on repeat, dark minded
With meaning,
The realism of the matter is with each mess we make
There's magic underneath,
A means to take it through the rubble, find a realization,
And make it gleam.
I'm sick of the voice, this dynamite in every nano-bite.
Bomb squad saviors, all shiny with armor, take a blast
One to make the deafening last
To detonate your dynamite
And help me find the shine in the golden grains of granite.

Copyright 2012 | Jazelle Handoush

Sunday, September 30, 2012

POETRY: 'Bow Tie Friday' by Trinity


It was a Friday evening

when I went walking

in the early September sun,

being young and free,

letting my hair blow

this way and that,

with my headphones loud

so my hips can swing,

when a young cat

stepped to me and said,

“Excuse me, Sister…”

I thought to myself,

“Sister?

Homie, is trippin’

with nowhere to unpack.”

“Excuse me, Sister,

 I couldn’t help but notice your swagger.

It’s not your style that caught my eye

because it’s rather simple,

but with radiance like yours,

you wouldn’t need any help to stand out.

I was stunned by the confidence in your step.

You don’t have the strides of a goddess,

but you demand respect.

How do I know?

I can tell by the way you cock

your right hip to the side

because you feel that I have crossed the line

somewhere in my dissertation already,

but please rest assure

that I have no intentions of offending you,

not even with titles.

I would never call my chick or even my boo;

there’s so much more in a name,

there’s so much more to you.”

If I had heard anything he said so far

it was that last part,

but I couldn’t let him know that he was on to something.

“Mhmm,” I said.

He chuckled.

“What’s funny?” I asked.

“You’re cute, even when you front.

Sister…”

 I shifted from the right hip to the left.

“Oh, you don’t like that.

I call you sister

because I have some kind of connection with you.

But I’d rather feel this connection

emotionally,

physically…”

He clears his throat…

“…and sexually.”

I know he knows that this conversation

could go one of two ways…

“That would be incest.”

He smirks at me

and I smile back.


I can overlook a little forwardness

from a gentle,

young man,

it just shows he’s willing to take chances,

he speaks his mind,

and he is eloquent.

He said,

“Ooh, and she’s quick witted.

So, can I assume that you’re natural?”

“Natural?”

“Real.

I see the gaze in your chinky eyes,

your high cheek bones rise

when you are truly impressed,

the red undertone

in your almond silk skin

flushes through when you’re flattered,

like now,

and all of that is complimented by

the beautiful curls in YOUR hair,

emphasis on your.

And though black is beautiful,

that isn’t the only ethnicity

that has contributed to such a

pretty face on a pretty frame.

Ooh child,

somebody help a Sister!

I’m not sure

if I’m more impressed by him

or the fact that he dresses with dignity.

I can respect an intelligent,

young black man

who wears a navy blue cardigan

over a solid,

collared,

white shirt.

His jeans are around his waist,

waves on swim,

and his hat tilted to the side.

He was staring at me,

I had my nostrils opened wide

breathing in his cologne

as the wind blew it my way

as if God wanted me

basking in his ambiance.

Couldn’t even vocalize

what I visualized,

he had my body paralyzed

as he smiled at me.

It felt good.

I didn’t know if it should,

by why wouldn’t it

if this brother of the night

was reciting his blues to me

as if my name was Nina?

I don’t mean to sound too cliché,

but I was digging his poetry

like a grave.

“You seem like a half way decent guy,

what’s wrong with you then?”

“What’s wrong is that

I’m only half way decent.” 

I blushed again.

We continued talking

but I’m not sure

what made me hand over my digits.

Was it his smooth,

Mississippi-brown skin

with an evenly blended

beard and goatee?

No, I see that every day.

As I turn to leave I stop and say,

“I never got your name.”

“I know”.

“Soo…

what am I supposed to call you then?”

He gently strokes my chin

with his left fore finger and says,

“Ya man”,

and walks away. 

I’m not sure why,

but that name satisfied me

even more

than his real name would have.

There were so many things

to reminisce over on my way home,

but I couldn’t remember everything

or even his whole face.

The only image

that had been permanently imprinted

was that I met

a  half decent guy

wearing a red bow tie

on a Friday.
*The bolded section is a quote from Destiny's Child - Apple Pie La Mode 

Saturday, September 29, 2012

POETRY: 'Nakedness of Humanity" by Trinity


We have been exposed.

Our sins trail behind us,

showing where we’ve been,

and they lay before us,

showing where we are headed.

Lines are being erased

so we can say we never crossed them,

and being moved up

so that the space “Outside the box”

becomes big enough

to justify alternative lifestyles

outside of moral ones…

all in the name of progress.

Our “progress” causes for incurable diseases

that we can’t say,

for sure,

where they came from;

all we know is

“it can only be treated”.

YOLO!

But living only once doesn’t matter

when you’re spending your last few years

dying from the bug.

 

What then?

“After death,

the judgment”.

We’ll live once to die twice?

 

What’s done in the dark comes to the light.

We are individuals,

and can do whatever we will with our bodies,

but ladies,

if it’s not a baby

then you were never pregnant.

To pretty faced men

“claiming that they’re the big men,

 you need to take care of your three or four kids, man.”

If fornication is what you have to submit to

then be willing to PAY for the consequences. 

Y’all like to play roles,

punks that are so quick to shoot the scene,

but it’s time to stop acting like boys

and be men.

 

It’s funny

because we’ll deny the truth

in order not to deny ourselves.

If even the righteous man

comes before God as filthy rags,

then what do you stand before Him as?

Forgiveness is only granted to the saved,

but people aren’t willing to deny themselves

because you only live once.

You’re willing to die twice

to live once. 

Hell is way too hot

and eternity is way too long

to throw today away.

You walk in darkness

because you are too blind to see

that there is only light,

God sees all.

 

The few selected have been rejected.

Better yet,

truth has been rejected

because you’ve been programmed to fear it.

“How can we show up for

an invisible war

preoccupied with a shadow

or making love to a whore?”

 

They say I’m narrow minded,

well,

“the broad way leads to destruction”.

Just saying…